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Last evening, I had the pleasure of spending some time with Sir and Miss. It was a nice break, to get away from home after returning for the winter holidays. Something happened, though, that I do not quite understand.
We were all relaxing on the floor, in front of the sofa, when Sir decided that he wanted to play with my cunt. His fingers worked their magic inside of me, bringing me some really nice pleasure. I could feel myself getting wetter and wetter, as Sir continued moving around inside.
After a little while, Sir and miss decided that they were going to try to fit 4 fingers inside my cunt. I already felt the tiredness around my cunt, and it only felt worse when Sir’s fingers were stretching me. Instead of telling him though, I kept on fighting, physically. I kicked him away and tried to push his hand out of my cunt, but it did not work. The whole time this was happening, both Miss and Sir were encouraging me to speak up, to use my word. But I just could not.
I have since had some time to process what happened that night, and have come to a slight understanding as to why I was silenced. I was unable to communicate because my mind was focused, over-focused on sorting out all fo my emotions. I was trying to figure out how I could let my guard down again, how I could make myself trust Sir and miss more, and how I could get rid of the idea of them suddenly abandoning me. Miss later pointed out that perhaps I was thinking too much, and that I dhouls stop thinking a bit.
I agree with what Miss said. In order for me to be able to communicate properly with Sir and Miss, my attention needs to be there and not focused on my emotions. I need to trust that I will work it out in time; and I need to understand that I may not ever, and do not necessarily need to understand all of my emotions.
I have decided that i am going to embrace whatever emotions come my way. I am going to try to let loose and stop fighting them, and I am going to just “wing it.” Whatever happens next, I will never know; but I am ready to get out of this rut and move on.
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pet,
I think it is important to stress that I do not wish for you to forget about your emotions, on the contrary. However, feeling your emotions and trying to fight what you are feeling are two very separate things.
What I observed as I watched you physically pull from Sir was a transference of emotions. You appeared to be fighting emotions and therefore you were pushing us away. A very understandable response, one though we need to work on together.
I think I might have phrased it incorrectly for I do not want you to push away your feelings, rather I want you to embrace them, to allow them to blanket your body, consume your being so that you can read them, identify them and feel whole through the process.
~Miss
Miss,
I think I know what you mean, and that’s why I scrapped my plan from last night. I do not want to ignore my emotions or push them away; but I also don’t want then to engulf me so much that I’m not able to speak. I think I need to find some balance?
pet
pet,
balance is always good.
~Miss
So glad you posted a link to your blog on ours yesterday. You write so powerfully – and erotically. Love what I’ve read so far, and looking forward to reading more.
Thanks Abel!
I enjoy reading your blog too. Hope you’re having fun these days!
You just set off a long overdue lightbulb in my head, stop worrying about my own emotions and focus on my Sir… THANK YOU!!!
Viemoira,
You are welcome, but by no means did I mean to ignore your emotions completely! Best wishes to you and your Sir.
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